Merry Esbat!

I didn’t really plan a whole lot for this full moon. I chose to meditate using the following meditation (not guided, just instrumental):

and then I tried a bit of divination.

The meditation went great. I had no goals. I simply wished to clear my mind and see what popped in. After a moment or two, I felt the need to sway so I did. It helped actually. After a while, I could feel my perception changing. The candle I had lit for Him (yes, I know. Full Moons are generally used to celebrate the feminine energy half, I don’t actually connect with any feminine energy yet. None have come forward and spoken to me in any sense of the word, so I just celebrate the masculine) seemed to get much much closer, and I could feel myself getting smaller, as the flame got bigger. I could feel my body yearning toward the flame. I wanted to touch the flame and become the flame. To feel it, and bathe in it. I couldn’t quite get there. Maybe with time and practice.

I find this experience interesting as the element of Fire has always been the element most outside of my grasp. I am predominantly Earthy in almost laughably stereotypical way. I’ve spoken with Air, and Water is the most relaxing place for me to be, but Fire has always been sort of standoffish from me. I’m wondering if Fire is reaching out.

My quick stab at Divination was unremarkable. My chosen Divination tool is a picture frame with the glass painted thickly with black acrylic paint. I can’t remember where I found this suggestion, but I like this as an easy and markedly cheaper tool than a full crystal ball, and less messy than water. The attempt didn’t produce anything, but I did not put much time into it.

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